After setting this up, it looks like there is more to do here than I originally anticipated… it’s going to take some time this evening to get this to look the way I want it to.  Don’t give up on me.  It may be blah now, but give me a day or two.

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I am going to try to get in the habit of posting atleast once a day, so bare with me… it’s going to be a rocky start.

Since ditching the meds, my head has been racing with thoughts I need to get out, but sadly right now I can’t seem to remember any of them.  I have been thinking about the most ridiculously scary stuff too.  While at my mother’s house I was able to watch LOTS of television.  I don’t like to watch TV… albiet it is always on at my house… it’s usually on some kid stuff or a music channel. 

SO… I was watching TV with my mother and crocheting… man, I am turning into an old lady… me and my fucking crochet.  Don’t you dare tell a soul I do that on occasion.  My mother does it, and I thought it would be fun.  Oh MY FUCKING GOD… I just said that crocheting would be fun… stop reading here and look up some porn or something.  geez.

OK OK OK… my story… I was watching Oprah with my mother… and they were showing these lovely pics of dust mites… so now I am having nightmares about these things.  Crawling all over me in my sleep… in my mouth and nose… eating my dead flesh, etc….. stuff horror movies are made of, I tell ya.

Oprah changes her sheets every 2 days… right.  I doubt that woman wipes her own ass, let alone changes her sheets… WHATEVER.  ANYway… I am freaking out about these things.  I am considering scouring with steel wool before bed…. and making sure I change my sheets right before I get in the bed… I may even consider sleeping on celophane I can wipe down everynight with bleach water or something… seriously… is there anything that freaks you?

I hate Oprah for showing close ups of those lil buggers… I will NEVER be the same.

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I am having the best day ever! I am so serious. Those of you that KNOW me know that I am totally in love with Mike Patton… ANYthing Mike Patton.  He is a FUCKING GOD!!!! ANYway… I just happen to be messing around on here the other day and what do I notice?…??

PEEPING TOM!!! Mike Patton again teasing me with his genius. SO, the cd came out Tuesday, and I had a chaotic day… funeral in the morning, trip to OKC with my fanatic mom, and a house full of old relatives who weird me out, so I didn’t get it. I wasn’t too sad, because I have been pretty busy.

I was thinking.. I know.. weird, huh? Maybe I should drive on over to our local wal-mart with my fingers crossed and see if by some weird CHANCE IN HELL!!!! they had my beloved Mike and his Peeping Tom. 

I loaded up kids, who are really annoying me today, into my 120 degree truck and trek across town.  School is out here, so the place is really happening… it’s like the local hangout here in “White Trash America”. ANYhoo, I get in the store and we dart straight back to electronics, and I am still pretty sure Wal-mart is going to fall through. I mean, besides me, I don’t think anyone here in Elk knows what this BEAUTIFUL man is capable of.

I lose one kid… fuck it… he’ll come ’round when he gets hungry or wants money. I don’t have time for a anxiety attack… I am on a mission. 

Brynn and I wheel over some youngin’s in our cart, and I madly begin to thumb through the “P”s… what’s this?

FUCKIN’ JACKPOT!

I grab it and jump up and down… fist it into the air with ALL my glory. Yeah I probably did a little jig too - I think I may have blacked out for a minute
“YES!!!!!!!” and “MINE!!!!” where uttered, more like a battle cry.

The rest of the trip was a blur… I bought some paint.. and some other totally MEANINGLESS neccessities. But today… I am content.

The have a page set up here on myspace Peeping Tom, but earlier the songs weren’t working… I want to pimp Ipecac Recordings = Peeping Tom actually the whole site is pretty awesome. 

Oh another thing I have to add… I got it at wal-mart… and it says “sukka” and “mutha fukka”… after my own heart… I know.

SO anyway.. I was excited and I had to share

*** shit, I forgot to mention licking the jewel box in wal-mart electronics dept***

I am such a weirdo

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